Friday, August 30, 2013

The ants come falling one by one...


The ants came falling one-by-one one this particular super-hot, sweat-mustache, chest condensation provoking afternoon in June, as one of my cohorts and I attempted to sit outside on a bench to begin preparing for the U.S. clinical skills board exam that we will be taking at the end of this summer/fall.  What would seem completely abnormal to many of you all was just a shrug off the shoulder to us.  My cohort and I were sitting outside on this bench, under the shade of the trees, yearning for any breeze that would cool us off from the afternoon heat and humidity of Cuba, practicing doing a history and physical exam on each other when we kept noticing ants crawling all over each of us.  The ants came falling one by one from the same tree that was providing us the shade.  Well, then these ants began biting us in the most personal areas that someone could be bitten in.  And these are not those nice, just minding my own business looking for my next source of sugar ants.  These were flesh biting ants that once you are bitten you become victim to an intermittent burning/stinging/itching pain that can linger for hours.  Yes, they are the tiniest little assholes.  But, the afternoon just kept getting better and better as we continued on practicing our physical exam under the watchful eyes of two Cuban men sanding the body of their door-less 1952 Dodge.  There was plenty of opportunity for us to be stared at since only one of them could work at a time, while the other one took turns watching what his buddy was doing and of course checking us out.  But, you know…they only had one piece of sand paper to share between the two of them, so it would make sense that one would do the work while the other one watched, and of course the one that would watch would become so fatigued that he would have to regain his strength by laying down and taking sips from the rum bottle.  So yeah…this is not your typical study environment, but this is our typical study environment.  So many stories to share that have become so mundane in my Cuban life.  Eventually, Evelyn and I just fell over from laughter in tears analyzing how “not normal” this is.  We should just automatically pass this board exam due to persevering in our studies during the most adverse daily living situations. 
Changing channels, time-warping from 1959 to August 2013: my journey continues after finishing a 4-week rotation in the hospital wards of Highland Hospital in Oakland, and now scrambling and pushing myself by studying for that clinical skills board exam that I will be taking before I head back to Cuba in the beginning of September.  Overall, I found my time on the Highland wards to be very challenging yet rewarding.   Although I felt some of the systematic challenges of using electronic medical records and more advanced technology, and of course just getting used to Highland during my first week on the wards, overall I found it refreshing to be able to do my job with more resources than I am used to in Cuba.  I felt that my Cuban education's strengths in emphasizing history and physical exam served me well on the wards at Highland.  And of course, being a fluent Spanish speaker (another reason to be grateful to my Cuban medical education) not only served my patients, but the team's patients as well.  I cared for patients with social determinants that I never have had to face while caring for patients in Cuba, like homelessness, drug addiction, HIV/AIDS, etc, patients coming to the ED, for example with shortness of breath, then being admitted and having to manage all of their preventable, chronic diseases in an in-patient setting.  It became so apparent to me how essential access to compassionate, comprehensive healthcare is.  It just does not make any sense to me that we cannot accomplish this here in the U.S. where we have such an abundance of resources.  My compassion for my patients and medicine motivated me to get through every challenge I faced during my time at Highland.  I came out of that experience of working 12 to 13 hour days more confident of my ability to function in a U.S clinical setting as a soon-to-be physician, fortunate to be able to start giving back to my under-served communities back here in the U.S. 
So, my summer “break” is coming to an end and I realize that it is that time again in which I am asking for suitcase love to send me back with on my journey to medical school in Cuba. Just think...it's my SECOND TO LAST TIME I will be sending out such request.  I cannot express enough gratitude for all of your love and support over these past 4 ½ years.  Here is the link to my amazon.com wish list if you are able to assist me in filling my suitcase: http://amzn.com/w/1FRMSH7O5SV3I. Much love!


Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Love in the Time of Cholera


Once upon a time, there was a future-physician studying in a land where everything appeared to be like she had traveled back in time to 1959.  She had once promised herself that she would never fall in love with a man from this land, but out of nowhere, the thrill of love blind-sided her.  Some characters in this land have referred to this true-story as unbelievable, because chapter by chapter, it seems as though all events could only appear in a Mexican telenovela; however, chapter by chapter this story is real, as real as the recent cholera epidemic in Cuba.  Just as cholera can be overwhelming with its voluminous rice-water diarrhea, this love was as overwhelming as hurting-so-good.
This man was no ordinary man, he was her dream man--incredibly funny, intelligent, super-fun and adventurous, kept her on her toes, introduced to her the amazing Habana night-life of music and dance that she had always yearned to know, and turns out to be the chef that she, at the age of 11, told her mom that she would one day meet and fall in love with so that she would never have to cook again.  Most of all, he made her feel like the sexiest, most beautiful, most incredible woman he had ever met and once said that he would like to end his days with her.  However, the real base of the story plot  of this soap opera began a short time before she met this man.  Not too much time beforehand, this man suffered from what it is like to be presumed guilty until proven innocent under the court of law that governs this land (not presumed innocent until proven guilty like the law that governs my home-land), his whole life torn out beneath him, a life that was once full of the luxuries of this land.  Once the law that governs this land had its way with him, they released him into a life in which he would be forced to sacrifice his true happiness.  Left in the profound slumps, he would soon find light at the end of the tunnel, with a promise to escape this land by marrying a stranger from Poland in hopes of building a new future. And, now steps in this sexy, beautiful, intelligent future physician, their meeting was purely by fate and was what he referred to as true happiness because he had never met anyone like her. Chapter by chapter, the soap opera continued, full of promises and hopes that they would spend their lives together, up until the stranger-wife would pop up in the story because you know…their story-line would pause so that he could maintain his other story with stranger-wife, motivated out of pure self-survival. Chapter by chapter, the soap opera unravels, up until the moment when she began to recognize that she was beginning to lose a little part of herself, the same part of her that everyone who meets her is drawn to. That bright Sarah-smile began to be replaced more and more with a face of worry, worry that her man would soon be leaving her to fulfill his promise to stranger-wife, but always leaving her with some false-reassurance that upon leaving her he would return to her in the future. And, the last chapter of this soap opera comes to an end as this beautiful, sexy, intelligent, future physician realized that she would no longer sacrifice those moments free of worry and self-doubt, that her happiness could not be determined by the promises of this man. Just as she learned to mandate prophylactic treatment for cholera as she walked the streets of this land of 1959 for a week, she also learned that there is prophylactic treatment from a life enveloped in a made for television soap opera just as overwhelming as the voluminous rice-water diarrhea of cholera.  He just plain should have not f*&ked with her, because sure enough she picked up the telephone and called stranger-wife.  Poof be gone…exit-visa with stranger-wife!  The end.